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I still remember the day when I was in a small kitchen, two Armenian women sitting at a table next to me, speaking in Armenian, preparing a meal google suchmaschine download kostenlos. I felt in an instant just how far away from “home” I was. But yet, I understood every word from their mouths- I too helped make the food. I sat there with them eating lunch herunterladen. Somehow, I was home.
As much as I did there, there was one thing I did not do- I did not really get to photograph it. For the eight years that I have been home I kept saying that I needed to go back with my camera icloud bilder auf pcen. I needed to tell the stories I felt, the ones with no words.
When I think of their stories, I think about their hands- and all that they do and symbolize vista kostenlos downloaden vollversion. I think of their light; their candles. The symbolism of their dark churches being pierced by the flames of candles. I think about the idea of being forgotten, but not lost. The story of their hearts, that they have always been found by the sacrifice of their ancestors. At first glance you may think you are staring at a ghost town- crumbling cement, grass peering through cracks. At first glance you might see sadness in the peoples’ eyes, the enlarged passport photos of their deceased loved ones clinging to their rug covered walls. And in it you find yourself breaking. But then you start to notice how every morning faces get painted with sunlight as they hurry outside to sweep the front steps for their shoes, holes in the bottom but always shined, to walk out the door; to walk into a fierce pride and devotion to what makes them Armenian. Perhaps the world forgot but they never will.
I left a trail of my heart and I needed to see where that path would lead. Armenia is where I became broken, completely and in a way I had never known, and in a way I came back to pick up some of the pieces.
But more importantly it’s the place where I was reborn. The place my heart decided for what it will beat for for the rest of my life. And as it is with any birth, it was hard. The pain, the blood, the moments you think you can’t possibly go on, all to push forward a new life, to give that first breath. So I suppose you could say that Armenia is, in a way, a birth place for me. And finally, I have come back.